Questioning
by Brooke Lindquist
It’s a daunting feat to break the cycle
They don't understand that it's not going to happen over night
I won't let it
They prayed for me I am not healed
Is my faith not strong enough
My apprehensions they had been detected
Is my faith not strong enough
Why do you make me so angry
I burn with a heat that wants to hurt
You have disappointed me
This god of my myth is being destroyed
And pictures of illusions made fragment in the light
Please feel at least some compassion
But nobody really wants to take that action
I must not be worthy
I am not worthy
It comes so easy to everybody else
Why, just for this can't I be like everybody else
Maybe is my understand blind
Or is my faith not strong enough
I thought and I was seeing things so clearly with a vibrancy
But now all I see is me which is anything but clear
But destined to be confused, broken, alone, has been forever shall be
Amen
I am a priceless nothing who feels her worthlessness
But can not feel her pricelessness
I want to scream my reality instead
That it hurts to break
My comfort it is becoming not so
While the unknown it pushes me back
And here I stay caught in my own middle
I want to scream
That it hurts to break
But maybe is my understanding blind
Maybe your understanding is blind
Or is my faith not strong enough
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